Selma Blair revealed in her memoir Mean Baby that she was sexually abused multiple times as a child and struggled with alcoholism.

According to People Magazine, the actor made the shocking revelations in her tell-all when she wrote that she first struggled with alcoholism at the age of seven.

“The first time I got drunk was a revelation,” she wrote in her memoir. I’ve always enjoyed Passover. Throughout the seder, as I took small sips of the Manischewitz, a light flooded through me, filling me up with the warmth of God.”

“But when I was seven, we had Manischewitz on tap and no one was paying attention to my consumption level, I put it together: the feeling was not God, but fermentation.”

“I thought to myself, ‘Well, this is a huge disappointment, but if I can get the warmth of the Lord from a bottle, thank God there’s one right here.'” That night, I got drunk. “Very drunk,” she went on.

“Eventually, I was put in my sister Katie’s bed with her,” the Legally Blonde star continued. I couldn’t remember how I got there in the morning.”

Blaire recalled taking “just quick sips whenever my anxiety would flare up,” adding, “I usually barely even got tipsy.” I became an expert alcoholic, skilled at concealing my secret.”

She also wrote about another heinous incident in her life, when she was raped during her spring break a day after drinking heavily.

“I’m not sure if both of them raped me. One of them most emphatically did “She penned a letter. “I hid myself in the shadows and waited for it to be over. I wish I could say that what happened to me that night was an isolated incident, but it wasn’t.”

“I’ve been raped several times because I was too drunk to say ‘Please.’ “Only that one time was it violent,” Blair continued. Each event left me quiet and ashamed.”